Cried. Everything seems so hard to deal with, my project especially. I couldn't figure out the figures after a whole two days of re-re-measurements. Yet the other areas in my life is weighting me down, the things my leader expect me to do and such And even a stupid crockroach bullied me. That accident of fear, seeing that crockroach, sadden me even further. I wonder why, but I feel weaker each and every day. Not physically but mentally. I'm so afraid of losing things or people that are close in my heart.
The things that I'm doing is saddening myself. By blocking up my heart to feel and give into a friendship. A mental barrior that I have yet to overcome. A situation where I have no way out other than walking to towards the path I never intended to take. To lose someone who suddenly means much to me. To lose myself because of my actions. Crying make no sense. What's my problem?