Why argue when at the end, I will still eventually lose out? Least to have my say expressed out? True enough I had mine expressed out. I'm trying very hard and I think I did the best that I could. I hate to be seen as disobedient or anything along that line. Who can understand how I feel? Other than telling me the same old things, can anyone try something new? I just need attention but yet on the other hand, don't want to accept any. I'm submitting to all authorities, knowing that's the best way out. Giving up what I have now might be a good thing, least for a better one to come by later.