[Shen] : "I can't find anything to fault you..."
[Faris]: "Oh. Why? Why did you cry..."
How dumb is it to cry during crit. So embarrassing and out of point. Maybe I didn't explain my concept well that Goh misunderstood my design concept and shot me with thousands of questions. I was so lost in a state of overwhelming questions and was trying hard to defend my model. Somehow, accidently let lose of my firm concept. Thankfully Faris stepped in to defend me. By then I was really very stress and was about to break down. I tried very hard holding onto the tears till I leave the crit stand, but tears immediatly rolled down my cheeks. I felt so dumb. Maybe I was just being too emotional. But afterall I really worked hard for my damn project. I guess I'm just overly stressed with all the questions and fell into their cunning trap. Tears kept flowing even as they "praise" me at the end till I finally walked out of the crit stand. I can't explain why I cried, nor can I explain why am I reacting that way. It's just, just.
Everyone was shocked, even myself. Why did I cry? I wonder why. Thankfully I got encouragements from most of my classmates, telling me that I did well [Did I?]. Felt alot better. Faris came by, telling me that I did well. Hopefully he isn't telling me that to stop me from crying even more. =/ Sometimes, I really like Faris for his sudden help. In order to thank him, I will really put in hours to write a good essay paper for him for Monday's submission.
[maybe you are right. if I can change the mind set that no one, outside my course, will understand me, probably I will know that you are one who understand me well enough.]
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